Kanpur-Gandhinagar-Bangalore-Calcutta

Don't know why,

I feel so ecstatic.

who is this inside me,

that is so aesthetic?



Is it my own self?

Have I changed somehow??

or is it that I was like this only

but I have discovered it now..



Don't know how,

a breeze of change swayed me away.

Backtracking down the memory lane,

can't see the footprints on the way.



Don't know when,

an angel entered within me.

A world with fragrance of love

is all that I can foresee.



No answers to these questions,

but one thing is for sure.

The blessings of that angel

are so sacred and so pure.


PS- This poem is composed by my special one. I absolutely love the subtle abstractions.

Back in college, when you're "just" a friend - you try pretty hard to impress her.
Suddenly, you would start having same opinions, same hobbies and same likings as her.

If she hates cricket - you'll instantly add it's just a waste of time
If she is animal lover- you would feel like hugging the stray dog on the footpath (and chances are you just might have kicked the same dog while being drunk previous night)
If she loves peace- you press shift delete to all the war documentaries you have.


As for me, I am absolute sucker for romantic movies. So "50 First Dates" is the best movie ever made, "A Walk to Remember" makes me cry and I was heartbroken after Winny and Kevin broke up in the greatest television series ever made- "The Wonder Years" (Watch it if you have not watched it yet).

So here is a snapshot of discussion we usually used to have-

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(5 years back)

(Smiling)Hi, One of my friends gave me 50 First Dates.
(I was about to say- Oh My God! That's my fav movie too)
What a sissy movie.
(Now I'm confused).
Do you ever think such a person would really exist out there in world? I kept laughing at it the whole time.
(Making a disgusted face) Yeah! I don't know what was that person thinking while making that movie. He still had not come out of his dream world.
Absolutely. I don't understand love at all. What a stupid concept!
(And here I am falling flat in love with you) Yeah. Totally over-rated. People are so dumb. They actually feel that they can stay with one person for life time(even I do..what's the harm in that :banghead: )
I'm glad you think the same way. My friend who gave me was a sucker. He told me my husband will suffer for life. And I replied back to him - who is going to marry in first place?
(Stumped) You're not going to marry? Ever?
Yeah. You see I'm not the romantic kinds. I can't fall in love. I'm sure about it.
(Now I'm about to cry. What kind of girl are you? And I was thinking of what dress she'll wear in our marriage) Hehe. Me too. Who believes in that concept except for maybe Karan Johar?(and me.)
Now look at A Walk to Remember.
(No Please No! Why are you just picking MY movies) Why? What's the harm? I feel that there might be someone who might love her girlfriend so much that she might even marry her on her deathbed.
Hehe. Nice Joke. I really appreciate your sense of humor.
(Kicking myself). Hehe. I'm glad you didn't fall for that. I would say in real life that guy would just have got busy in finding himself another date.
Yes. I second. There is no guy who would do this
(Come on! I would) Yeah right.
Let me leave. I'll meet you later.

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(Today)

You're really bad. You made me like the romantic movies.
Why? What's the harm?
What kind of guy will propose a girl 50 times?
Oh no. Not again.
You're an exception. But majority won't.
I'm glad that atleast you said that.
I won't forgive you for making me like the romantic movies. I still feel they are sissy.
Yeah. I'm glad I did that.
And I won't forgive you for making me want to marry. I never ever wanted to marry. And you came and changed that. I hate you for that.
Is that a compliment?
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PS- The scene at the top is my favorite scene of all times(from Love Actually).I wished her Valentine day(4 years back) in the same way and it did wonders.

PPS- and that's why readers find ALL my posts to be hopelessly romantic.

Flashback (Class-II in school):

Senior:Abhishek say ‘Kite’.
Me:Tite.

Laughter all around. Reason- I used to stammer. Even students from class 12th used to come to see my special talent. I could’ve easily won the Talent Hunt of my school as a standup comedian without even cracking a single joke.

That made me go into a shell. I stopped talking to anyone. Even in interval I used to sit in a corner and study. Well if you don’t speak at all then nobody would come to know if you can pronounce K or T correctly. I became an introvert and was scared of talking to anyone new. Slowly my seniors and classmates stopped picking me and the folklore died. Only thing that remained was my silence.

College:
I had never tried to rectify my wrong habit. I never needed to -as I hardly spoke. Now when you need to impress a girl of your life, you need to speak and speak smartly. I was in dilemma. To speak or not to speak.
So I figured out a middle path. I would try to avoid words starting with alphabets K,C,T and few others.

Hey hi! So how are you doing?
Doing good.
(Seeing a book in my hand) So, which subject you’re reading?
It’s a Physics thing related to movement of bodies.
You mean Kinetics?
Oh yeah. I thought you would not have heard that name.
You think I’m dumb?
No no. Absolutely no. Well when are you going home?
Maybe next week. Where is your hometown?
Well I’ll give you hints. You guess. It’s largest town of UP, has an IIT.
I don’t know.
(Come on!) Kanpur(saying very slowly).
What? Didn’t hear you.
Hey how is your assignment going?
Going great. But some idiots are not doing their part and I’m sort of getting tensed.
Ahh. Don’t worry (fearing my team mates of the Humanities electives project would be thinking the same). Anyways, what are you doing tomorrow? We can have dinner.
Yeah. I’ve not been out for a long time. We can. What’s the place called?
It’s a food chain of Italian dishes. It has many branches all over India.
Still, it might have some name.
Pijja Hut.
That was the moment when I realized I was doomed. In the excitement of having dinner with her, I had forgotten to censor my words. I had increased my chances of seeing her again from 0 to minus infinity.
What? No it’s not the way it’s pronounced. It’s pronounced with a z like hard S.
Ok. I know I’m not great in pronouncing words. I know that.
Yeah, even I have noticed that.
You knew? You knew from all this long.
Yeah. But it’s such a small thing. Why are you getting so frustrated? Just try once again and you can pronounce it correctly.
Yeah. You want to make fun of me. Right?
Come on. Ok. If you can pronounce once correctly, till we reach the girls hostel, we’ll have dinner tomorrow. Else the plan stands cancelled.
Now I was in a shock. My nightmares were coming true. I just walked with my head down and almost in stage of crying.
Come on!
I realized this was my only shot. This was the only chance for me to conquer my fears of lifetime. And also that was my only chance to go out with her.

Pijja
Pijza
Piiiiija


No. Try to focus on middle part. It’s z and not j.

Pizza
Pizza
Pizza
Hey very good. Let’s meet tomorrow evening then.
I couldn’t believe it. I had done it. It might not be a very big achievement but for me it was like climbing Mt. Kilimanjaro.
And that was the moment I realized- She is my dream girl. She never looked down upon me. I was strong when she was around. I was not ashamed to make mistakes infront of her. I was not ashamed to be myself. I could go down to bullies of my class and could Pizza-fy them.

That’s the moment when I realized- May be this is what true love looks like.


PS- My bad! It's called as Lisping and not stammering. Thanks to Anshul for pointing that out.